Oh shucks.. I can't even use my own com now. My bro tried reformatting it again and this time it's worse. I can't even start up because there will always be a error messasge saying that a file need to be installed blah blah.. My brother say that there's something wrong with the Windows XP CD...

That's why I am bored.. Can't do my own stuffs on my com. Anyway I was clearing some stuffs in my room and I found a key. That's when it triggered me to open a drawer which I have not done so in many years. And guess what? The drawer was filled with so many letters. To be more specific, these letters were written way back during the primary school days. Memories flash back in an instant. I had so many pen-pals in class and even from other classes. Usually my classmates will write letters and pass them during lesson time. On a few occasions we got caught and the teacher warned us that if we do not pay attention in class, she would inform our parents.. Haha I really had a good laugh reading some of them. It was all about real childish stuffs like discussing digimon codes and stuffs, giving teachers nicknames, talking about friends and even rating them in percentage.. o.O lol.. those were the innocent days.. =X

Missed those happy times.. Childhood memories are always the best.. Where everything feels so real and perfect.. and you hardly worry about anything.

Kinda happy last night. Firstly because my computer is ready to be used and secondly, my bro brought this big box home and it was actually my new speakers. Cool.. and when I tested out the speakers, the sound quality so much clearer and sharper.. good bass.. =D Haha really good for blasting now. Love my bro.. waha..

Aww.. but now.. my com hanged quite a few times just now. Using my brother's com again. Not sure what's the problem.. Don't tell me I gotta reformat my com again?

z.Z Z.z bored bored bored... it seems like it is gonna rain soon. Such a gloomy day today.. Does it reflect my feelings? o.o

Called home delivery and had KFC and one slice of pizza for dinner. Yummy yum yum.. Hadn't had that for a while..

Today feels kinda weird.. For no reason, I am feeling happy. Motivated as well.. perhaps because of the talk with my Mum and Bro in the afternoon.

Added a mp3 on my blog already.. (Duh!) OOooo nice song.. and for those who find it irritating, you can stop it if you wish.. Hahaa..

I knew Fantasia would win American Idol. It was so obvious that she was already the winner. So many people was voting for her.. Haa but I still wanted Diana to win. Nono.. I mean, La Toya! Yeah.. and so it's finally over.. till the next season.. and Singapore Idol will be showing soon..

In the morning, bro asked me to learn how to format my com. Grr.. so much option rubbish.. When he left for school, couldn't ask him for any more help but I still continued with the set up. Unfortunately, when the set up was done, the com hanged and I got to start all over again. It hanged the 2nd time and I gave up.. Aargh bro better help me with everything ASAP! -.-

Just a while ago, I ate a few pieces of sardine toasts for lunch. Now feeling so boredddd.. I cleared much of the mess in my room. Certainly looks neater but still, few more stuffs to throw and pack..

Now talking to BiXia about her camp in SP.. haha sounds pretty interesting.. Yeah so later if I got nothing to do, I guess I will watch the tennis French Open later.. z.Z Z.z...

Yesterday I went to my cousin's house. Didn't intend to go in the 1st place because I was packing my room halfway. But still, I went.

Ate dinner there and played computer games with them for a short while. Played with their cute little dog too. Then it was time to eat the birthday cake. This time it was Oreo cheese cake. Haha not bad after all.. Yup I was right! I ate 3 birthday cakes this month.. =P

Today is another boring day. Bro is back frm his chalet and I hope he fixes my com soon. In the meanwhile, chatting with Jacqueline aka Dottie now.. she's full of rubbish.. =X Just now we really got nothing better to do. Playing around with msnplus and emoticons. Waha.. don't know why she is so happy today.. hmm?

Grrr... so restless.. HAha waiting for -tonight- impatiently.. Firstly because it will soon be the end of the day and secondly, it's the American Idol final results! I wonder who will win. Is it Fantasia or Diana? Fantasia seems to be more popular because of the crowd's cheer yesterday. Diana didn't sing well for her last song but well, anything can happen..

I am hoping for Diana to win.. wished it was La Toya London instead.

I'm so tired and restless at the same time. Went to the gym again in the morning. This time I did a little more.. Didn't only focused on my legs. I tried more gym equipments today.. Haha some were really interesting and fun. Erm.. but I think I did a little too much today so now my legs feel kinda weak and soft. o.O

Hmm I am beginning to think too much again. Why can't these thoughts just go away? I don't even know what the heck I am thinking about. I guess when one is bored, thoughts come natually because you got nothing to do.

Ok I've got an idea what to do.. I need to pack my room.. got too much rubbish to clear and throw away. That should KILL lots of time.. z.Z Z.z

Dad woke me up at 8.50am to bring me to the gym.. but it was only at 10+ when we left the house. Haha it was all my brother's fault. I was waiting to go to the toilet to washup and brush my teeth. I knocked the 1st and 2nd time on the door, no answer. The 3rd time I knocked and called him. He opened the door and looking at me with his sleepy eyes, he said "Sorry, I fell asleep..." z.Z Z.z wah.. I waited nearly close to an hour!

Later on, Dad brought my bro to school then we went to Serangoon Gardens for breakfast. Both of us had prawn noodles before going SGCC's gym. I worked on the bicycle, leg press and leg curl. My right leg is still kind of weak.. gotta build up the muscles.. zzz..

Now I am blogging on my bro's com. Have some problems on my own com because bro changed the CPU for me and some files are corrupted. Sometimes it's ok but sometimes the com hangs and it can't start up. Hmm anyway he says he will fix it soon. Hope he does it ASAP.. coz he's no. 1 in delaying.. haha can't blame my busy bro. =X

Alrighty.. I am gonna eat my lunch now... (and the boring days are still ahead..) Sigh sigh sigh..

Could not sleep last night.. Guessed I was thinking too much again. Furthermore, my brother invited some friends over to play Mahjong. So there was still the clashing of Mahjong tiles, murmurs and laughter. Yep.. end up tossing and turning.. wasn't sure what time I fell asleep.

Hmm.. regarding my poly course, I decided to stick with it. After discussing with my aunt who is really a pro in business, I think it's wise to just continue with the course. If I don't try, how will I know it wouldn't work out? There are 4 options to choose at the end of the day and I am sure there is one that I am interested in, err.. hopefully.

Hope for the best and may regrets get out of my way!

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A picture speaks a thousand words...

Awww.. Just had my lunch and I feel like puking now.. That doesn't mean the food was bad.. It's because it was so filling!!!

My grandmother made fish and chips today.. Haha that was nice.. The plate filled with yummy fish, french fries, small pieces of luncheon meat.. It looked delicious and the portion too didn't looked big and so I thought I could finish the whole thing. I was wrong.. In the end I was struggling to finish but I couldn't force myself any longer. On top of that, there was still mushroom soup and salad.. Haha.. I gave up eventually.. =X

I am so filled up now.. no tea-break for me today~ Haha..

Hmmz finished watching The O.C. and bro suddenly popped up the question about my course in poly. He told me that if I could change my course to Business Infomatics instead. According to him, he said too much people are in business these days. Dad also said that Business with IT will be much better coz you got the best of two worlds..

Initially I thought of going into Business IT but my Mum made me change my mind.. AArgh.. now bro is saying all these.. and it's making me have second thoughts. You know.. anyone can really influence you in your decisions.. I think it's already too late to change my course but bro said there's always a way..

Grrr.. confused once more...

Life is just so unpredictable.. Nobody knows what tomorrow brings. Be it bad or be it good, anything can happen. Anything.

Recently in The Strait Times, an 18 years old boy died in a motorcycle accident. Apparently, the rider lost control and it hit the kerb or something. He and his friend was flung out of the bike and was seriously injured. He died in hospital.

That 18 years old guy was my brother's friend. My bro attended the wake yesterday. It must really be devastating for the family.. =( My bro also said that the other friend might only have 10% chance of survival. It's really sad news.

Long ago, my Dad warned me never to sit on a motorcycle. Whether it is getting a lift or, whatever. And yesterday, bro emphasized again not to ever ride on one. He said that many of his friends had been already hurt while riding a motorcycle and this recent incident that happened was the worse. Seriously, motorcycles are really dangerous. I don't think I want to ride on it either.

Deepest condolences to the family...

It's my brother's birthday today. I kept thinking what present I should get for him. Asked my friends for ideas and then something struck me. I talked to Jacqueline yesterday and she mentioned about baking a cake for a friend. This gave me the idea to bake cookies!

I have not made cookies before. Only seen my Mum making them. I was was worried that there was not enough time to finish baking them because I was not sure if I had all the ingredients and I wanted to baked them before my bro got back. Well but I found all that I needed and then, it was time to put my skill to the test.. =X

I searched for some cookie recipes but they were not to my liking. Then I saw one... "Butter cookies.." And I started making that with a twist to it. So added this and added that.. Made letters, shapes and patterns.. Mixed the sugar, butter, eggs, flour etc... and the outcome was the perfect dough! Erm I should say "perfect?" =P

So added the final touch by decorating those hand-made letters and molded shapes and patterns. Into the over they go and out of the oven with a nice aroma! It smelt great but not sure about the taste though. I took a piece and tried.. haha really not bad for the 1st attempt, I would say!~~ =D~~

At night, it was cutting cake time again. This time it was a chocolate cake with cream and oreo bits I think. Not sure what cake is that.. it goes in to the stomach anyway =o. It seems like in the month of May there are so many birthday cakes to eat.. Haha that's if my cousin invites my family to their house to celebrate on 26th May.

Bro was very tired after his camp. He had hardly enough rest. After dinner and a few slices of cake he went up to his room and that was when I gave him his present with a little note. Hope he likes this present.. =) Happy Birthday to you.............

Today wasn't that boring for me. I woke up early at about 7.45am because I was disturbed by a telephone call. After that I tried getting back to sleep but I just could not.

It was the first time in many weeks that I woke up so early. When I went downstairs, everyone seemed to be so surprised that I was up already. Haha then I told everyone this, "One of u might just strike 4D today.." =X

So after breakfast, continued watching Slam Dunk. Then about noon played DiabloII with BiXia.. and yay we finally completed the game and we can proceed on to the harder levels..

Yup, started going back to Church again. Ever since the 2nd Op I have not gone to church for a couple of weeks. Aww.. =( Kinda feels good going back again.. but I can't kneel down yet. I also realised that standing for too long causes stiffness and slight discomfort. Well but it's so much better already. More itching then pain. =/

Now, I'm just talking to a few people on MSN. I am trying to catch that irritating mosquito at the same time. I already got bitten... Grrr..

Someone help.. I am not good at catching mosquitoes...

It definitely feels better, now that I had mopped the floor. It was kinda dusty just now. Hmmm sparkling clean floor.. =X

Aww did a virus scan just now and it detected 5 viruses! All of them were Trojan viruses.. and it took me a while to remove them manually. =/ Not sure why it cannot be cleaned automactically..

Aargh.. everyone is saying that I am too fair~! Like yesterday when I was in SGCC, I went to the toilet and met the cleaner. Haha she still recognises me because months ago, I used to have tennis lessons there and after the lesson, I would take a shower before going home. I greeted her and we talked for a very brief moment. "寰�涔�娌¤��浣����������浣���板�ㄥ����块��浜�������娌℃��������浜����," were some of the things she said and then came "浣�濂藉��涔���ヤ����戒��"~ Haha I cannot help laughing.. Obviously I agree but you can't blame me because I haven't been out in the sun for a long time.. Grrr.. guess I need to do Sun-tanning and I need to start getting out more often too.. =o

To the beach to sun-tan =X

Happy Birthday to my Dad. Once again, he is older by a year but I must stress that he is still young at heart. =O

The whole family went to Jumbo Seafood Restaurant at SGCC for dinner. I finally got to eat seafood again.. Like prawns and crabs. =D~~

Haha after my 2 operations.. I was not allowed to eat seafood and eggs.. you know.. those old folk's superstition.. They say it isn't good for the wound. The doctors didn't even say that I can't eat them.. -.- My grandma(s) and Mum wouldn't allow me to eat whereas my Dad would say, "Aiya, just eat lah!" Hehe..

Anyway I was quite filled up after the meal. When we got home, there was still a birthday cake. MMmmm.. yummy Mango pudding kind of cake with peaches, strawberries and kiwis. I love this cake. My Mum bought it quite a few times already as it tastes really good. =D~~

Then there was photo-taking and my bro was the photographer as usual. Lots of time was delayed as my bro took a long time finding the camera and the camera's batteries were flat. He still got to find the new batteries and replace the old ones. At that time, we were all hurrying my bro because the candles were melting fast, up to the point that it was burning the plastic at the bottom too! Haha.. Now everyone is complaining they are all bloated.. Tired too as everyone has gone to bed except me..

Happy Birthday once again to the man I admire most.. =)

Aarggh.. totally unbelievable. LaToya is out of the competition.. Even Fantasia was in the bottom 2! That was really shocking. It goes to show that -Anything can happen- Looks like the voice don't matter but perhaps, popularity? However LaToya still remained so calm and cheerful.. I really wonder if she was really taking it that way or was she feeling disappointed inside.

Hmm..

Looks like Jasmine Trias will be out of American Idol tonight. She isn't doing too well especially yesterday. Bad choice of songs and she had alot of pitch problems. She broke down after listening to all the judges comments.. (Simon said a nasty one =S) Kinda feel sad for her.. But up to this stage, everyone's a winner..

Hmm I really wonder who will win. Latoya, Fantasia and Diana are almost equally good.. but I hope Latoya wins.. Heh heh..

We will see..

When I was 5
I only wished for a toy
Then at 10
I was happy when I got a pen

12 came soon
I received a balloon
And 15 came quick
I again took another pick

Soon 16 came
I wished for nothing
And no one was to be blamed

Soon 17 is here
And there are no more wishes I fear
Perhaps wishes are nothing but a single tear..
Running down and evaporating..
Disappearing..
With just a blink..

I am so bored.. bored, bored and always bored. I feel that I have no life now.. As if life is so meaningless.. I eat, sleep, and slack. That's all I can do..

Sigh.. blame it on this stupid knee. Don't know what happened in the first place.. but thankfully it's recovering. I hope to get back to sports and activities again.. Aarggh.. one thing I can't imagine is not running for 9 months.. that's what the physio-therapist said.

I just want everything back. Back the way it used to be..

Happy Mother's Day to all Mums. This year I did not have the chance to buy anything for my Mum. Maybe next year.. (Anyway Mum, u are the greatest!) =P

Well to us, Mothers are the ones who nag at us the most. At time we shove her off as we find the nags so irritating. We often lose our temper sometimes. "Why is she always telling me the same thing," we may say. As a matter of fact, deep in every thing she says, lies words that mean so much. Her concerns are always unappreciated because we think we have heard enough of it. Hmm..all I can say is that every Mother just wants the best for her child...

Erm.. I did nothing much today. I watched a few episodes of slam dunk and it's really getting more exciting as the match progresses slowly to the finals. Hoho.. it's really great to see the fighting spirit and determination in the players. Some parts really make me laugh too.. haha..

To one and all in whatever you do... JIAYOU!

I just added in a photo album and that's my trip to New Zealand. I will be putting up more pictures soon but in the meanwhile it will just be this one. There are currently about 28 photos but I gotta delete some because they take up way too much storage space. o.O

Talking about New Zealand, it was one of my best trips ever. I love the south island better because it's really a peaceful and lovely country. You see mountains, hills, valleys, rivers, lakes, greenlands, pastures and that really blows u away. The scenic view lets u forget all your troubles in an instant. You just feel so at ease and happy as if you are leading a carefree life. Terrific. Splendid. Fabulous.. and I can go on and on...

If I have the opportunity again, I don't mind going there a second time... I just love going for trips...

Was back not long ago and I am dead tired.. z.Z Z.z Went to the airport today with my grandparents (see I am so filial =X) to send my aunt, uncle & cousins off. My cousins are going to Melbourne for a tennis competition. Wish them all the best.. do Singapore proud~ =PpPPp Too bad I don't have the opportunity! I don't think I can continue playing tennis too because of my knee problem. Maybe I can only play it for fun.. perhaps just as a casual hobby. How sad... =(

Anyway I actually didn't want to go to the airport with my grandparents. Furthermore I hate long bus rides because I will always feel sleepy and sometimes I get headaches. But kinda feel bad rejecting them and since they insisted, I just gotta tag along.. Haha..

Coincidentally, when we were in bus no. 24, Gaga was also in it.. o.o Haha but I only saw him getting down. If I was not wrong, saw him listening to music.. u know those act cool kind of guys? Lolz.. just kidding =X (U are also nice to kajiao.. muahahaz..)

Hmm what else? Oh yeah.. the airport has changed quite alot. So much construction is going on and I can hardly recognise the place. I haven't been to the airport since 23rd December and poof, there already has been so many changes. Yup.. so after bidding goodbye to my aunt, uncle and cousins, we took the skytrain to terminal 2 and went to the foodcourt to eat Indian Rojak and I ate Wanton Mee too.. =D~~~
On the journey back, we took 53 instead because it was faster. But we didn't have a peaceful ride because some inconsiderate people were talking so loud. I know they were complaining about something but I can't be bothered to listen. They act as if they own SBS company o.o Hello?.. it's a public bus not a private bus. Haha no offense to people taking loud but I was really already so tired and feeling irritated =X

Yup, summary for today.. Well I think I still can't walk long distances. My leg can't really take it as it gets tired easily and there will be slight pain. Zzzzz now I'm at home eating potato chips.. sharing it with my mum.. Haha.. That's all folks! *crunch crunch*

Wooo.. it's pouring heavily now. Nice weather to sleep in your cosy little bed.. Haha.. today the opening of the door and the rain woke me up.. z.Z Z.z

Yesterday I suddenly felt that a sharp needle was poking my wound. There was slight pain and there was that irritating feeling. It's much better today although it still hurts a little but now the wound is sooooo itchy! Worse then a mosquito bite -.- I don't really dare to scratch too hard.. So just have to rub it gently..

Now I gotta wait for lunch.. and I am starving...

Slept at about 4am yesterday all because of that dumb lizard. I was about to switch off the lights and who knows a lizard came crawling out. Argh.. so irritating.. I actually went to my parents' room to take the spray and even woke them up.. Wanted either one of them to help me catch it. But they gave me the sleepy look and said don't bother about it. -.- Yeah.. kinda gave up catching it too but just as I was about to turn off the lights to sleep again, it came out of it's hiding place again. It hid behind the air-con then crawled behind the wire casing. Grrr.. it was frustrating! I kept knocking it out several times but it wouldn't want to come out. Only saw that stupid tail sticking out on a few occasions.. and poof, it somehow disappeared without a trace. I sprayed here and there but it still managed to survive. Lousy Shieldtox~ Anyway didn't see it today.. It must have run away..

Anyway I was right about something. I realised that I supposed to collect the medical report! Haha that's why I was wondering why I have not received it yet. But I only heard that they will call me up and inform me. Didn't hear anything about going back to collect it. I think I will be going back tomorrow to get it and need to get it posted as soon as possible. I already passed the dateline but luckily it has been extended to 7th May. Yeap.. off to bed now.. z.Z

The word "regret" is one word everyone hates and yet ironically, it is because of our words and actions that caused these regrets to happen. The movies "The Time Machine" and "The Butterfly Effect" show that there are regrets people had made and they very much wanted to go back in time to change the worse for the better. Perhaps some things are meant to be and that everything happens for a reason..

Strange isn't it? Sometimes given the situation we are in, we say or do things so rashly. However, we do know the consequences but yet, we still do it and regrets are the outcome. It is only then we realise our mistakes.

Well... every regret we make, let it be a lesson learnt. As the saying goes, once bitten, twice shy. Whatever it is, we got to be sure what we want. We got to make right decisions. We got to be careful with our words and actions.. Or not.. it may be the next regret in our life......

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more

Waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I'm missing...

This is Stacie's Orrico's (There's Gotta Be)More To Life. I guess everyone wants to know what's missing too.. To everyone.. For a better tomorrow!